First month

After the first week, our lil man had his first check up. He was 6lb 10oz at birth, dropped to 6lb 5oz when we got him, and had gotten back to his original weight in 5 days. The Dr noticed his jitteryness, his cry was almost a scream. He was going through withdrawls. They weren't awful enough for any type of hospitalization, but awful knowing he was going through them. The Dr told us to expect them until 8 months.  Our next appt was his 2 week check. He had gained a pound! We were really happy.  He was still going through withdrawls, and sleeping alot.
At our 1 month appt, he had gained a whopping 3 pounds! He had started getting some chub on his little body. But there was an issue with spitting up, so we switched formula and things started to get better.
At this point, mom had been given supervised visitations twice a week. Thursdays visits were in a baby bonding group, and friday was just her. 2 hours each day. For 4 weeks in a row she never showed up to her thursday visits, so they were taken from her. She usually missed at least one Friday visit a month. She didn't really know what to do with him, she was very emotional and cried alot. We decided along with the caseworker that we would put a notebook in the diaper bag, with info for her. Anything new he did, any info from Dr visits, basically things she could know as a mother in hopes of better bonding. But it was kind of too late, he was bonded to us. This is one thing the State doesnt understand....a newborn won't bond with their mommy if they have already made that bond with you.
He mostly slept through his visits. She fed him and changed him, and gave him back to us. I started to notice a trend in myself. On Fridays, I was very aggitated until the visit was over and he was back in my arms. I had fallen completely in love with this little man.
Our caseworker has to see him once every 30 days in our home, so we started discussing what would happen if mom didn't get him back. We were very discouraged. There was a family in Ohio, who adopted his half sister and they were interested in adopting him too. Because they had his half biological sister, they would win over us in court. Now, the stubborn operson I am said "No way....you will not take him away from me". So I started my journey, reading up and asking qustions. I hit a dead end when I was told by an attourney that we would not win over a bio sibling in court.
Since that day, I have been broken hearted in hearing this news.